Thursday, September 9, 2010

My world.

My world, in all its chaos and tumult,
I'm astounded, as each hit is swiftly taken and replaced by one, equally as cold, equally as arduous.
And you look me in the eye and surrender, any trace of integrity, purity, those lips somehow still hold.
While i ponder how faceless a face may be.
All i see is a facade and all i hear, fabrication.
It may be an act to one such as you but to me,
but to me,
my stomach, it's turning like the tide while you're changing with the wind.
My heart, my lungs, the blood in my veins, I'm stricken to an immovable state,
Just taking the punches you throw at me.
Your reason, your reasoning, there is no sentiment.
Your fear of disapproval?
Your cowardice?
But it may only be a notion and i may only presume.
What does the end offer me, what does a blind man dream?
and why are we all searching for answers we've so long known?
I can lie here in this idealistic, pensive state and long.
But this is it.
It's real, its here, its right now and this world,
This world is all my own
and you are no longer a part of it.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

What a skill to have

I've met someone that makes me feel seasick

Sunday, May 9, 2010

All i see is a girl with her mind in a million different places that just can't quite figure herself out...

Tuesday, May 4, 2010


Your intricacy
Your intricacy is wasted on me.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

The love of my life (L)

We never take photos together so we took lots :D

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Fall Down, Never Get Back Up

Forever wait inside the sea for me, my dear
I hear you
You speak in every curling wave
And sing in every violent breeze
Someday not far away from here
My dear, I swear I'll see you
And we will hear the seraphs cry
For they will still envy you and I


I always thought Winter was the best time to be with someone..
The strange thing is i can't remember being with anyone in Winter..
Maybe i'm just dreaming.
But sometimes i wish i weren't dreaming alone.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Some of the best lyrics i've read in a while..

Part of the sum we aren't, constantly conscious of our arms
With each and every breath of fresh air we share this warfare, but it's all over there.
So help them if you can, but you should leave them if you can't
There'll be more damage done now if you turn and run, surrender your guns. Look who's won?
Nothing good's been done Since when we learned to fly, mimicking birds we
share the sky

We didn't have wings in the first place... now we keep taking too
much space... we'll have to galactically rotate.
Someday we'll fly away somewhere else into space establishing us in a new place to devastate.
Hell with it anyways, because there's always new doomsdays...
And a solid falls apart, but it's just like your heart, it's as temporary as stones are, sinking your arc.
Buried beneath the sea, ancient remnants of you and me
Dissolve to modern day where it's pretty safe to say we have turned into something monstrous and overweight.
There vary us a face, distinguishing your place.
You'll never be ignored, all your information stored indefinitely be of one accord you can never afford.
Hell with it anyways, because there's always new doomsdays...
And a solid falls apart, but it's just like your heart, it's
as temporary as stones are, burning your art.
Gets pulled into the sun, I'm just a normal organism.
It's all the same concept, whatever made up this mess expressed it with the intelligence of conflict, sick-intellect.
Disfigured from the sounds, I guess the devil makes his rounds.
Your soul gets swept away, blinded by the light of day. It's ignorance sense is convinced, makes no real sense.
Like when we learned to fly, mimicking birds we share the sky
Someday we'll fly away somewhere else into space establishing us in a new place to
Hell with it anyways, because there's always new doomsdays...
And a solid falls apart, but it's just like your heart it's as temporary as stones are, sinking your arc.
You'll die beneath the sun, guaranteed you'll be done,
it's as permanent as one-day's sun, we're all one sum.

Friday, April 9, 2010


My family all went camping for Easter.. I have an amazingly crazy family.
Really, you don't see the extent of this craziness until they all get together.
So me, the recluse i am, trying to escape from this seemingly hereditary mental illness, decided to sleep in the car instead of in the tents with everyone else...Ahh i'm a terrible person haha
But seriously i needed to get away.
Was the worst night ever for actual sleeping but was so nice to just lay there and think for a while.
The moon was so bright that it was near impossible to get even a couple of hours in. And as soon as the moon went down the sun decided to shine directly through the window to where i had my head! At like 4 o clock in the morning this first pissed me off quite a bit as it was really the only sleep i'd gotten all night.
But laying there watching the sunrise really was one of the most beautiful things. I don't care what you say, a sunset will never beat the beauty of a sunrise. Partly due to the effort you have to go in to watch it rise. But mm that morning really made my Easter :)
A huge post with no point.. exactly what i needed after this posting drought.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

I move in water, shore to shore; Nothing's more

On Saturday night we were heading home from Albury after i played a gig at about 7.30 or 8 o'clock. We were about to get onto the causeway when we saw a Buddhist monk sitting at the bus stop on that road. It was getting dark so we figured we'd pull over and ask if he wanted a lift.
So we stopped and asked and he said yes. He could hardly speak English but told us, after mum said that she would always help a Buddhist because she's a big fan of the Dalai Lama, that he worked directly for the Dalai Lama for a long time when he was in Thailand..pretty f-ing cool! We took him home and, turns out there's a Buddhist temple in Albury! and he lives there with all these other monks. When we got there he made us wait for a few minutes and then came out and gave us all of this amazing fruit or 'Fruit from the Buddha' as he said, and gave us each these yellow bracelets and said that with them, we would always be lucky. Was so so nice. Sometimes i wish so much that i could be religious, Buddhism is just such a beautiful religion, shame i'm such a cynic haha. Living by Ahimsa is enough for me, maybe one day i'll shave my head and wear a robe...that could be fun haha

Friday, March 5, 2010


I'm searching for stability.
For i am completely out of balance
both physically and mentally.
I can only blame the ones with expectations
and the ones that have proved themselves transparent.Or maybe i'm just lost in places i should never have gone.

Saturday, February 27, 2010


Was amazing.
Maddi forgot her camera so when we got back to Milli's we thought we'd take some in all of our digustingness hahah i love it.

(We were trying to keep straight faces for the whole photo)

(The poster on Milli's wall haha)
P.S and i shaved part of my head haha

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

I've stopped letting myself get attached

I'm pretty numb to a lot of things at the moment.
It makes it easier when things dont work out...
Which seems to happen the majority of the time at the moment.
Life is becoming simpler in an amazingly complex way.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Rain, rain

Don't ever go away

I live at the edge of the universe..

Like everybody else.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010


The principle of refraining from harming any living being.

Getting it tattooed on the back of my neck for my 18th birthday :)

Not sure if i'll get it in Hindi or English yet though

Sunday, February 14, 2010


Have you ever met a person that you just can't fault?I have.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Radio Star Gig

We're playing at this on Saturday night...who's in?

Kurt Cobain

I just bought his biography on ebay :) Can't wait.'It's better to burn out than to fade away.'

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Paper Dreams

I heard a sad story today. One of the saddest i've heard in a while.
I don't want to write it here because i don't like reading it. :(

Saturday, February 6, 2010

This Notion

I wrote a new song today.
A new song with old lyrics all put together haha.
But i thinks it's one of our best yet :) So it'll be good to play live next week. I've missed gigging over January.

I've suddenly got lots of inspiration and i know exactly why :)

Friday, February 5, 2010


I spend my days repressed,
Having staring contests with the sun
and though it may be blinding me,
One day i’ll know i’ve won.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010


I made a formspring..i'm very bored. Ask me something good?

Friday, January 29, 2010

Beautiful nights, beautiful people.

It was just another night
With a sunset
And a moonrise not so far behind
To give us just enough light
To lay down underneath the stars
Listen to papas translations
Of the stories across the sky
We drew our own constellations

I bought a Jack Johnson cd today. I listen to it and it makes me think of special things. I feel real nice :)

Friday, January 22, 2010

Head Vs Heart

I always hoped i'd have the strength to do all those cliche things- Follow your heart, heart over mind, put love above all
But the truth is my head beats my heart every time. Whenever i get caught up in any chance of a relationship, i do this stupid stupid thing where i start to think. And then i keep thinking and thinking and all of a sudden all those things that seemed to fit together, fall apart and i'm left with a huge mess of doubts.
I don't think i'm cut out for this relationship stuff. As soon as any tiny thing goes wrong i ruin everything.

About face

I do not like what you've become
I do not like what you've become
I do not like what you've become
I do not like what you've become

Thursday, January 21, 2010


Iter Itineris

One day you'll look over life as if thinking of a failed relationship.
You'll sort through memories in the most explicit manner and try to pinpoint that exact moment when things seemed to go wrong.
You'll search every part of your mind to try and find that exact day, exact event, exact moment that you lost your way, when things began to fall apart.
But you will only find yourself disappointed.
With your only memories of failure being blurs of motion, you will never see your moment of defeat, only the things that exist from it.
On this infinite road of lonely souls, you'll always hope that it was fate that took that wrong turn, not you.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010


She rules the world haha
The last couple of weeks have been awesome just because of her.
I hate not having her at home anymore :(
But i'm going to hers for a lesbian Australia Day Party
So life will rule on Tuesday
I can't wait to be back in Wodonga on Friday.
So many people to catch up with! I miss everyone!

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Grace and Juliet

The finished product of our music video :D

Let me know what you think.
It's quite an amazing feeling to see the finished product of something you've worked towards for years.
Like the actual clip only took a couple of days to make and about a week to edit. But the work we've put towards getting where we are has really been the stuff that i'm feeling has paid off now. It's nice to have an accomplishment like this. :)

Tuesday, January 12, 2010


Don't try.



I'm in Melbourne and things feel quite amazing.
We just finished two days (about 18 hours) of recording!
The song is now completely different but fucking awesome so i'm happpy.
I got some chill time with Milli today and saw her new house
which i refer to as the island of lesbos (7 lesbians in one house). She's so happy, i love it!
Tomorrow we're doing the music video. We decided to do it at the Dandenongs so it'll be all foresty and cool haha but i really have no idea what we're doing for it yet. So that'll be interesting...
Can't wait to see how this all turns out, it could easily go one way or the other. But i'm having an amazing time experiencing everything and i really can't wait to move here. So i guess it doesn't really matter at all what comes of it.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

My next adventure.

I'm leaving for Melbourne tomorrow at about 4am.
Monday and Tuesday will be spent recording at Studio 52 with Empire Records. We've got 20 hours recording time for one song! So it'll be pretty crazy.
Then Wednesday we're doing a music video for the song, probably on the beach and Thursday a photo shoot and just finishing everything off. Then straight home to work at 5.30.
This will all be so amazing so it confuses me as to why i'm not even excited! Haha
After i get home Thursday i'm going to Merimbula for a week. This will only be good for my chill time with Milli.
Everything is falling my way lately, things are looking up and i'm feeling good.
I just sometimes wish i wasn't so numb to things.
Text me while i'm away! I'm missing everyone.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

I miss Maddi

It makes me hurt all over.

Monday, January 4, 2010

Home could be anywhere when i am holding you..

I have, once again, found happiness in another person.
One truly amazing person.
I feel happy again and it's been a while since i've been able to honestly say that.
I love this feeling.